Bipolar or Not

July 16,1987. This was the day of my initial break down or dissolution of consciousness. I believed that the end of the world was near and that I was a special person chosen by God to usher in the Kingdom of God. Subsequently I have proposed that I was drugged. For three years I had suffered social ostracization and I had enemies that wanted to prove that I was insane. What better way than to drug me with mushrooms or LSD to make me appear ill to make me believe that I was wacko. I have been diagnosed with bipolar affective disorder. I don't struggle with moodswings. Over the years i have had delusions and paranoia but I don't believe that I am actually bipolar. I don't take much stock in modern psychiatry.